I almost gave up not because I stopped believing in God but because I couldn't feel him anymore everything I had built started to fall apart piece by piece until I didn't even recognize myself anymore honestly I was showing up smiling creating but inside I was totally exhausted and one night sitting on my bed in my room I whispered god I am tired and I can't do this anymore and he said I will carry you he dropped this in my heart I am in this with you the sentence I am in this with you broke something open in me because I realized that I wasn't being punished this season is not a punishment season I was actually being held by God it's my being held by God season trust me starting over with God doesn't look glamorous it's actually mercy it's lonely and full of uncertainty it's not about beginning again because everything is perfect it's about beginning again because I refuse to give up on myself and most importantly I refuse to give up on God when God said I will carry you I felt the kind of peace that doesn't remove the storm but actually it changed the way I stood in it it changed the way I stood in the storm maybe that's where you are too trying to keep it together praying through tears crying in the bathroom wondering if God sees yOU he thought God sees you God knows you and God sees you and even when you can't walk he's carrying you through this chapter Dia Grande thank you for being here even when I can't feel yoU thank you for carrying me through the weight I didn't know how to lift help me Lord to remember that being still here is not weakness it's evidence of your strength in me if you're starting over with God I'll ask that you don't rush it don't try to rebuild what he has already torn down because I did that so many times and it failed instead let God build you and if all you can say today is God I am still here that is more than enough because truly God is in this with you he's in this season with you he's carrying you even right now so I want you to remember that God's got you he always got you so act like it this is me saying this to myself to act like it and also saying it to you act like it if this message spoke to you today I would like you to share this with a friend just share this with someone that you feel needs to know that God sees them and that they are still here and they can still be here if this message spoke to you today I would like you to share this with a friend just share this with someone that you feel needs to know that God sees them and that they are still here and they can still be here and God is still with them and let them know that they are not alone free audio post production by alphonic.com